.

In a middle of nowhere.

trees, coldness, fog, and no persons...

Could I turn my head back

to all the vulnerabilities I have won fighting against?

​

I did run from my darkness, as far as I could

Somehow, they would have never stopped chasing me down.

People said that I will navigate my life best without a leading light

Why I have seen nothing but a road to nowhere?

no light, one color, a fear, and uncountable loneliness

.

I am in my maturity stage,

wonder if I am still allowed to burst into tears like a child after his fall? 

and,

whether if I shared my hidden stories with you, some days 

Will you take your guard down, and cry with me?

​

I love my mother’s smile, 

She has a smile achieved from both happiness and sorrow.

Since she tends to give a happy smile to everyone and keeps her own a sorrow side,

I wish my smile looked like hers, all the time.

But I guess, 

I have never succeeded pursuing a smile like hers, haven’t I ?